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I have been having...you can’t even say “health problems” with something this minor, tiny trivial discomforts which upset me only because when they hang around for a few days, I keep thinking “but what if this is the first sign of thus-and-such terrible illness,” etc., you know, the way one does. Distracting myself with cdrama rambling.
An idea coming up from all the very good Guardian meta there seems to be a lot of lately. Shen Wei in episode 8 etc.: I mean, he is horrified to find that modern pre-Kunlun Kunlun is such a disaster all around, but also there’s this amazing unfolding joy at seeing all the aspects of Kunlun that, for various good reasons, he never could ten thousand years ago; even the terrible ones (possibly excepting the fridge) are in some ways wonderful revelations, both in the sense of just getting to know him better and in the sense that there’s so much more depth and complexity to Kunlun than his younger self could ever have imagined, including the bad parts, and for the first time he’s able to imagine the things that have made/are making Kunlun who he is, not just his own youthful adulation. The head-on-shoulder taxi scene is a real moment of his discovering what it’s like to be older than Kunlun, in both years and maturity, and recognizing again that yes, he still loves him that much. And it’s terrifying for him, both because he doesn’t know that (this) Kunlun does or will love him back—and he doesn’t know if he’ll get him back after the timeloop—and also because Professor Shen and the modern Black-Cloaked Envoy being completely, self-overwhelmingly in love is different from the sweet, half-grown Hei Pao Shi of ten thousand years ago being the same.
Also: I swore to myself that I wasn’t going to do this, and then I did it. Here is a little bit of fic which fits in at the end of episode 23 of The Rebel (T-rated, canon compliant, hurt no comfort, essentially nothing happens). Almost certainly influenced by the excellent fics already posted by others, especially achray’s for the same episode.
( The glass of water )
Be safe and well.
An idea coming up from all the very good Guardian meta there seems to be a lot of lately. Shen Wei in episode 8 etc.: I mean, he is horrified to find that modern pre-Kunlun Kunlun is such a disaster all around, but also there’s this amazing unfolding joy at seeing all the aspects of Kunlun that, for various good reasons, he never could ten thousand years ago; even the terrible ones (possibly excepting the fridge) are in some ways wonderful revelations, both in the sense of just getting to know him better and in the sense that there’s so much more depth and complexity to Kunlun than his younger self could ever have imagined, including the bad parts, and for the first time he’s able to imagine the things that have made/are making Kunlun who he is, not just his own youthful adulation. The head-on-shoulder taxi scene is a real moment of his discovering what it’s like to be older than Kunlun, in both years and maturity, and recognizing again that yes, he still loves him that much. And it’s terrifying for him, both because he doesn’t know that (this) Kunlun does or will love him back—and he doesn’t know if he’ll get him back after the timeloop—and also because Professor Shen and the modern Black-Cloaked Envoy being completely, self-overwhelmingly in love is different from the sweet, half-grown Hei Pao Shi of ten thousand years ago being the same.
Also: I swore to myself that I wasn’t going to do this, and then I did it. Here is a little bit of fic which fits in at the end of episode 23 of The Rebel (T-rated, canon compliant, hurt no comfort, essentially nothing happens). Almost certainly influenced by the excellent fics already posted by others, especially achray’s for the same episode.
( The glass of water )
Be safe and well.
