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 Well, I swore I wouldn't bitch about work here...but...this isn't exactly work-bitching, if it is work-related. It's just something that makes me sad. One of our graduating seniors, call him D, has been my secret favorite among the kids for a long time. (And I'm not kidding. Maybe eight hundred hours in the classroom together over three years, six weeks with the school all living together in Korea and ten days' class trip to Canada?) He's a gifted English student--kind of an obsessive about grammar, go figure, how many teenagers do you know who fit that profile?--and will be going to a design college in London next fall, and he's spent a lot of time asking me endless questions about obscure rules of grammar and oddball turns of phrase. Favoritism isn't cool (especially when we have fewer than ten kids in the whole senior class), but I've spent more time and effort on him, I think, than anyone else, and regretted it less, even though his general manner toward me has always been kind of brusque and not what anyone would call appreciative. It's my job to do it, not his to appreciate it. 

Since the last month or so he's started pretty much ignoring me--doesn't come speak to me unless there's something that no other teacher could possibly accomplish, barely replies when I ask him direct questions. His general affect isn't that different anyway, but it feels very different to me, and it really hurts. I feel as if I've put so much into him over the time he's been in high school, and cared so much about him, and for him not only to be indifferent to that all but to seem to find me fundamentally wanting, just really hurts a lot. He doesn't owe me anything beyond the most basic courtesies--speaking to me and looking at me if I address him, saying "thank you" if I find a book I think he'll like, neither of which he'll bother to do these days--but I don't care, it just hurts.
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 So I have actually been the one in charge of the religion elective for seniors at school this year, on account of I'm the one who suggested it. This was the first year we had either seniors or electives, so it was all very experimental; in the spring we had some guest speakers, and in the fall it was me and four kids--an easily confused but likeable devout Baptist, two young budding atheists/feminists, and a dryly reserved artist of, as they say, no party or clique. We had some good discussions, and the kids became somewhat more informed about the basics of world religions than most high school seniors around here. Come the end of term this month they wanted to watch "a religious movie," and the closest approximation I could find in the video store was this thing with Orlando Bloom called "Kingdom of Heaven." I'm not a movie-goer, to put it mildly, and didn't know from it, but it turned out to be a sort of action-movie crossed with historical-religious heavy stuff. Crusaders, Jerusalem, Saladin. Not very interesting as by me, but not a bad starting point for discussion. The kids had been doing the Crusades in history class and understood the background, and got the idea of what the filmmakers were trying to do with their rather heavy-handed hints about Christians and Muslims making peace etc. etc. (I'm all in favor, just the way the movie did it was so obvious.) 
I was interested to find it not entirely unrelated to things we've talked about before in their experience as Korean-Japanese, too. One of the kids asked why there were lots of Christians and Muslims around Jerusalem but no Jews to speak of, and I, um, guessed (my medieval history is pretty much limited to Eleanor of Aquitaine and Richard III) that it was the Diaspora, which is a word they know well. It also occurred to me, watching the movie, that it was very strange to have all these white European Christians setting up manors in Palestine and ruling over the local Muslims. What do you call that? I asked the kids, and D my artist said in his usual throwaway style "Colonialism." Damn straight.
Eventually the conversation turned to the Muslim conception of heaven, all those beautiful virgins, and B the Baptist just couldn't get the idea--for some reason he kept repeating "And so at your funeral you have these seventy-three beautiful women, or...?!" "Not at your funeral," I began, trying valiantly to keep a straight face, and P and W the girls (giggling outright) kept correcting him "No, it's seventy-two!" He just couldn't let go of that one extra lady.
 
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 A lot of my mind is on the peninsula right now. It hasn't been at the top of the news in the States, seemingly, but North Korea and South Korea have been firing at each other, and things are tenser than they've been in a long time. An ordinary gun-shooting war would be one thing (awful as it would be), but I worry that the genocidal lunatics* better known as North Korea's government will in fact be crazy enough to do something nuclear. The peninsula isn't that big. Everybody would be screwed. Japan, too, would be in a state of absolute panic. A lot of the ugly prejudice against people like my Korean-Japanese colleagues and students would come to the surface, when for the last few years there has been comparative understanding. I've seen bits of it already--friends of friends on Mixi (Japan's version of Facebook) talking about "those people," "let them do what they like to each other as long as they don't bother us," "we should have known they were all like that..." Aigo.
Ironically, this is the week when one of my students got his acceptance to a university in South Korea. He's actually the third of our kids to get into college in Korea, but he in particular had a lot of struggles with the application process and, before that, with school and studying in general. His mother's raised him and his sisters on her own, and for him to decide to go to college and to be accepted into a good one is one of the biggest happy things that's happened to any of us lately. Things otherwise, small and large, have just generally sucked lately, but this is something to make me smile. Now please God he and the other two don't lose their college chances to an ill-timed war. 

*I do not wish to refer to North Koreans en masse as genocidal lunatics. What I understand, mostly from reading Andrei Lankov and Barbara Demick, is that most North Koreans are ordinary people, good and bad in the usual proportions, who have been abused almost beyond belief by the so-called people in charge of their country. 

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