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nnozomi・ Do other people do this? I feel as if my brain insists on having something as a main source of worry, trivial or otherwise; when one thing is resolved, I can actually feel my mind flailing around for the next thing to worry about. Jewish race-memory neurosis? Fear of blindsiding? Who knows.
・ Talking with A-Pei about 知己 vs 志同道合; her take was that the first one, the zhiji that turns up in cdrama fics a lot, is more of an emotional connection (not necessarily romantic) while the second, new to me, has to do with shared perspectives. Worth thinking about for both fic and real-life purposes.
・ I've written, let's see, respectively 0.8, 0.6, and 0.2 or so of three fics for the Guardian wishlist thing, with a few more in mind, all short. Not sure what I will end up with but I'm enjoying myself. I got quite a lot done yesterday by alternately procrastinating on fic writing with work and on work with fics.
・ Strauss' Salome on the radio, a favorite opera: "Joka-a-a-nan!" talk about being carried away by your crush on someone, even though I hope most people will not go quite as far as Salome does, but her swooning-over-him theme is so so gorgeous.
・ Ep. 35 cont’d.: Sometimes I wonder if Lao Ji ever grumbles to himself that he signed on to foment Communist revolution, not to pass messages between a couple of idiot lovebirds.
Ep. 36: Chen Moqun calling Wang Shi’an “Shi’an ah.” The intimacy of mutual acknowledged hatred. Although I feel like he has it all wrong. If he’d treated him that way when they were officially working together, before Lin Nansheng, Wang Shi’an might have been thrilled. Now he’d much rather be called by every title he has, not least to rub it in Chen Moqun’s face.
(And okay, I really want Zhu Yilong’s friends to pick up that line about “Deputy Station Chief Lin Nansheng only drinks tea!” and use it on him whenever they go out to eat for, like, the next ten years.)
ep. 37: Lin Nansheng himself acting a part here is Zhu Yilong at his finest, gorgeously layered.
Photos: Purple. The cat was not for sale, but came and said hi to me politely when told to do so by the shop lady. As for the other photo, it's a not uncommon error even among native speakers, but the last dessert on the list gave me pause (or paws).
Be safe and well.
・ Talking with A-Pei about 知己 vs 志同道合; her take was that the first one, the zhiji that turns up in cdrama fics a lot, is more of an emotional connection (not necessarily romantic) while the second, new to me, has to do with shared perspectives. Worth thinking about for both fic and real-life purposes.
・ I've written, let's see, respectively 0.8, 0.6, and 0.2 or so of three fics for the Guardian wishlist thing, with a few more in mind, all short. Not sure what I will end up with but I'm enjoying myself. I got quite a lot done yesterday by alternately procrastinating on fic writing with work and on work with fics.
・ Strauss' Salome on the radio, a favorite opera: "Joka-a-a-nan!" talk about being carried away by your crush on someone, even though I hope most people will not go quite as far as Salome does, but her swooning-over-him theme is so so gorgeous.
・ Ep. 35 cont’d.: Sometimes I wonder if Lao Ji ever grumbles to himself that he signed on to foment Communist revolution, not to pass messages between a couple of idiot lovebirds.
Ep. 36: Chen Moqun calling Wang Shi’an “Shi’an ah.” The intimacy of mutual acknowledged hatred. Although I feel like he has it all wrong. If he’d treated him that way when they were officially working together, before Lin Nansheng, Wang Shi’an might have been thrilled. Now he’d much rather be called by every title he has, not least to rub it in Chen Moqun’s face.
(And okay, I really want Zhu Yilong’s friends to pick up that line about “Deputy Station Chief Lin Nansheng only drinks tea!” and use it on him whenever they go out to eat for, like, the next ten years.)
ep. 37: Lin Nansheng himself acting a part here is Zhu Yilong at his finest, gorgeously layered.
Photos: Purple. The cat was not for sale, but came and said hi to me politely when told to do so by the shop lady. As for the other photo, it's a not uncommon error even among native speakers, but the last dessert on the list gave me pause (or paws).
Be safe and well.
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Date: 2021-09-10 07:28 am (UTC)LOL I think I just made (a version of) this post. Solidarity.
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-10 10:01 am (UTC)Hmmm. No, I don't think so? But I do the thing where I procrastinate about something which is causing me worry, thus prolonging the worry much longer than it needed to last if I had done the thing much earlier...
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-10 10:40 am (UTC)This is one of the reasons I like it when I'm actively working on fic -- it gives my brain something to chew on that isn't potential catastrophes or possible social gaffes. I don't know if it works that way for you?
I can actually feel my mind flailing around for the next thing to worry about.
Ahh, in my parlance, that's the feeling of brain weasels rummaging around for scraps.
*cheers on your writing*
*enjoys your photos* ♥
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:38 pm (UTC)That's a good point! This is very context-dependent for me--if I'm worried about my own health stuff, physical concerns tend to distract me from thinking about fic, but more abstract worries can be treated this way. (Also fic works much better than original writing for anti-worry purposes, because it's less hard work--in a sense, anyway--and much more iddy. Why is my own original writing not deliberately designed to suit my id, good grief.)
♡♡
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Date: 2021-09-10 01:16 pm (UTC)My brain absolutely does this - as exemplified by recent moving to a different country stress, which actually went comparatively quite well, but whenever one issues was solved my brain would go 'hmm, ok, what else could possibly go wrong' and start stressing out about that. It's been a tiring few weeks.
Guardian wishlist! I'm glad you're having fun with it, whatever comes out in the end. I've more or less finished two stories for it and am eyeing a third, but I actually have a problem of there being too many prompts that catch my eye so I can't settle on anything, which is unusual for me. (Well, in the context of an event anyway - my long long list of WIPs begs to differ otherwise.)
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:40 pm (UTC)That's exactly it. I hope your move is now settled and (relatively) worry-free!
but I actually have a problem of there being too many prompts that catch my eye so I can't settle on anything
I made myself a list of prompts that looked like something I could work with and have been jumping from one to the next, fiddling with prompt B when getting stuck on prompt A, then leaping to prompt C and so on. We'll see how many I actually finish ;)
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Date: 2021-09-11 12:21 am (UTC)... I literally just started on a third fill (this one Lost Tomb Reboot though) and am just praying it'll be a short one. At least one of the other ones has a bit of recently awakened Shen Wei navigating Haixing in it? Not a lot though.
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Date: 2021-09-11 10:08 pm (UTC)yup, been there. good wishes.
I literally just started on a third fill (this one Lost Tomb Reboot though) and am just praying it'll be a short one. At least one of the other ones has a bit of recently awakened Shen Wei navigating Haixing in it? Not a lot though.
All of this sounds very promising!
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Date: 2021-09-10 02:50 pm (UTC)Yes, though in my case I’ve always attributed it to the clinical anxiety! I do find that having A Project seems to help; the anxiety can be a little more useful then.
Chocolate mouse tart, eh? At least that one would be easier to get down than a chocolate moose tart.
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:43 pm (UTC)Ha! I don't think my anxiety is technically clinical, but stranger things have happened. I think when it's something I can do something about, having a list of contingency steps helps--"okay, if that's really the case then I will do x, y, and z and we'll take it from there"--when I actually often end up not needing to do any of them.
Chocolate mouse tart, eh? At least that one would be easier to get down than a chocolate moose tart.
LOL, you have a point. Let's just assume it was meant as a treat for the cats in the vicinity.
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Date: 2021-09-10 04:10 pm (UTC)That's fascinating, thank you for sharing!
*cheers you on for your fic-writing*
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:44 pm (UTC)<3<3
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Date: 2021-09-11 05:10 pm (UTC)All I can say is I don't do this, but I am also great at repressing stuff. Anyway, I hope you don't feel too bad and can keep it under control!
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Date: 2021-09-11 10:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-12 08:41 am (UTC)I used to do this, yes. Took me a long time to train out of myself (things happened, not going into that in a public post), and I still feel like I'm not 100% reliable anymore because of that - because obviously my brain thinks I should have thought about all the possible (and negative!) things way ahead of time to be considered reliable. Wtf, brain.
That said, it's hard and the ground is sometimes shaky, but maybe it's possible to outgrow it, given time.
Purple = still gorgeous. Oooh, cutey cat! Lol, the mouse makes me think "crunchy frog". :D
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Date: 2021-09-12 02:05 pm (UTC)oof, that's hard, and sounds quite familiar on my end too. I wonder why our brains (people in general, I mean) are so irrational so much of the time. But outgrowing/training away is promising to hear about.
Lol, the mouse makes me think "crunchy frog". :D
lolol!